Since being engaged, old emotions and friendships are creeping out from the cobwebs. You know how sometimes you and your best friends just drift apart? Some of the ones from high school did. We drifted. I tried pulling it back together but nah, didn’t work.

So after a good solid year(+) of literally no contact and ditching my 21st birthday party thing, you want to take me to Kleinfeld’s? And help me plan my wedding? I don’t know how I feel about that. I just don’t. Part of me is like “I love them, old buddies, cool!” and the other, more resounding part of me is like “You disappear from all aspects of my life and pop up a year later when there’s a wedding. Are you really happy for me?”

It breaks my heart to have to be the bad guy but I don’t think they deserve to experience the joys of planning my wedding. They’d have to show me. Comment on my wall, send me a text, a phone call, a casual trip to the mall, anything. Something to show me that you care enough to be a friend; not treating me like I’m just the friend who’s getting married.

I try not to let things get to me or be too sensitive because friends in my life are scarce. And who want’s to spend all that energy on being negative? No matter how much my friends may let me down, I know I’m marrying my best friend; and I couldn’t ask for anything better.